I actually love the sound of rain, for me, that equates with cozy, especially at night. I held Ben tight as he fell asleep, total comfort.
Today was also a wash. Golf clinic cancelled, although I did have an amazing morning with two new personalities. Baseball game, called out in the 3rd inning because of lightening..then rain.
I think I've lost my mind because I let Ben and friends dig a sand trap this afternoon.The golf course is progressing. The boys were happy for the rain, to green up the areas that turned yellow...sand trap, now a mud puddle. It's all good. Our backyard has been abused through the years..must enjoy their fleeting youth.
I'm trying so hard to make progress with my inner thoughts and memories...why can't I quit reliving that morning..the visual is emblazoned in my brain. It creeps up on me unexpectedly..I don't ask for it, but it rips my inner core.
Maybe, I'm in a sand trap. I'm stuck and I can't get out.
I'm sure I'm not alone in wishing there was something I could do or say to help you... I'm hopeful that some peace will come to you soon friend. Thinking and praying for you and Ben.
ReplyDeleteBarbie, this may sound whoo-whoo,new-agey, but some people have had relief in similar situations by using hypnosis. It doesn't take more than a few sessions to help learn a way to live with a devastating experience.
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