...it's a new year

Blessings to all:)

I feel so much guilt for everyone who aches for me...I will survive, yet I will always remember.

Simon & Garfunkel - Bookends - HQ - Lyrics

...hello blog, where have you been?

It seems like I'm forever having to set new passwords for anything I use on the computer...for lack of use. Tonight was no exception. I made it  through the holidays with flying colors.

I had a facebook friend post something that I will plagiarize,"The end of 2011 is truly a cause for celebration".... In my world, a new year of hope.

...I'll be home for Christmas

Even though my mom moved to Lincoln,Ne, many years ago...home is always where she is:) I started packing the car tonight and held some things back, because in my mind I thought, Jack can pack that for later. Talk about a mind blow.

I think about him more this time of year, maybe not the miss factor, but the stress factor. Jack's clients would try to use up their advertising budgets by the end of the year...or they would pre-bill and pay him for work that would be completed the following year. Yet, he had to estimate and send bills prior. He could barely get out of town......but he brought the Santa gifts, sometimes the Waterfront clam chowder for Christmas Eve...damn, I miss my Scrooge.

...simply remember your favorite things

...and then you won't feel so bad. Words to live by. If I could only heed to my own advice.

Sound of Music ~ My Favorite Things ~ Lyrics

...trombones, ice skating and math

...that's how I sum up my day.

This is my new normal...and it's going to be okay. Maybe I'm lying a little bit.

Dr. Jeckyl & Mr. Hyde...that's me

...who is Barb?

Sarah McLachlan - Angel

..it is a blessed season

I thought about Jack during this song...but mostly it's a tribute to my earth angels, who wrap their arms around me everyday, with laughs,calls,texts and hugs. This was for you:)

...Sunday hugs

Ben and I have a tradition of snuggling up together on the couch. Jack was a morning guy..Ben and myself, not. We just don't talk. Jack was cheerful...too cheerful. Jack understood me, but I finally had to tell him about Ben. To this day, Ben and I don't speak to each other, nod maybe...but then the snuggle comes in, somehow a tickle may happen...and we're both ready to have a good day:) Silence can be golden:)

...I'm not Sherlock Holmes

Getting into the brain of an 11 year old ...is tough. Sweet and tender, yet he can still make bad choices.
I tucked him into bed tonight and told him to start wearing his WWJD  bracelet, although I told him to think...what would Jack do.

Damn you Jack, none of this should be happening.

Joni Mitchell - The Circle Game

..new season

This song is a homage to my Pi Phi sisters, we rocked:) It also gives me pause, raising this son of mine, also making me pause once again, thinking about how many seasons Jack has been gone.

...if I could save time in a bottle

...the first that I'd like to do..

I loved Jim Croce growing up, I thought this song would be appropriate for tonight, after listening 4 times, I didn't feel the vibe. I'm somewhat aesthetic dealing will proper artistic choices. Wrong feel.

I've been off the radar, except for Ben. This boy amazes me, we're going ice skating tomorrow, so he can furthur explore his hockey dreams:)  I also watched a lot of gold panning on TV this evening, so we can travel to a state where it could happen:). Love his imagination:)

... is to save every day, till eternity passes away, just to spend them with you.

Please Jack..still watch us, love us, and miss us, just as much as we do too. I have got the best support team, but I still use your theories on major decision making...you taught me well.